from the outside I might look like a normal girl, just like all the others. Like nothing is diffrent between me and them. but if you really knew me, you would think diffrent about me. no one has any clue about how many secrets I'm hiding behind this smile. no one knows about the pain I always feel. no one knows about the real me..
I'm struggeling with my weight since august. I've totally lost the control about myself. I've had lots of diffrent eating disorders. almost nobody knows about them. because it's my little secret. since then I've spoken to lots of doctors who are trying to get me back on track. I act everyday as if it's all going well with me. as if nothing has happened in the last months and if I've become healthy again. but deep inside, I still feel the force to lose weight, to count calories and to starve myself..
